My friends and I have begun to weekly set aside a time to seek God’s will for us in our city. We usually go to a park in the neglected part of our town and worship, pray, hang out with whoever is there, or just play haha. Yesterday, we decided to take a prayer walk through the neighborhoods and happened upon this beautiful spot. It just astounds me how you can find beauty anywhere.
So lately things have been pretty crazy. Not much creating happening on my end. I’ve felt pretty stagnant and confused about what to do next (major change,moving, shutting myself up in a cave so I don’t have to deal with life lol). I feel like this has been a really big time of just learning what I’ve been building up in my heart and learning how to knock down the walls. I’ve been listening and looking alot and getting inspired by other people, by things my mom says, by my friends, by God… Here are five things that have been inspired me the past few weeks.
1. My best friend Aleya sent me this amazing video about two weeks ago. Here’s what she said about it.
“It makes me excited for this new season of life. A fresh start, always new reasons to give love, always finding joy in new places. He’s so good to us! I don’t understand how I let myself believe I’m bored in this life. He’s everywhere and He’s fascinating! Ahh life is just beautiful, isn’t it?”
I love her and totally agree with what she said! God is so so good and it’s crazy how much this video reminds me of my own life and my great group of friends. They are so beautiful every one of them and they are a gift to me!
Sincerely Kinsey is such a beautiful blog and what inspires me most about her is that she uses her beauty and her amazing photography to reveal the extravagant goodness of our God! it’s so great to see how God is affecting and using people everywhere!
3. I don’t know how to put this one, but I can feel in the air a sense of change. Maybe it’s just Fall or me being a dumb romantic but I can feel that God is about to teach me something big about myself. He’s already started to show me but I can tell it’s going to take a lot of breaking to figure it all out. I can definitely tell it’s gonna hurt cause it already does. I’m going to have to reconstruct the way I look at myself and other people and I’m going to have to be healed of a lot which is always hard. It’s going to be so good and it is really really necessary.
4. “Bloom where you’re planted” My mom has said this to me often. Those words are a lot easier for me to say than to do. I find myself asking “How?” or “Why here”. I’ve been pretty dissatisfied with my situation and I definitely haven’t been willing to bloom. But that’s so stupid. Plants don’t decide when to bloom and they bloom when they have what they need. God has given me all the tools I need to grow. I’m ready to stop being stagnant because my idea of the way things are supposed to be isn’t working out. We have one life to live people! Let’s bloom!
Last one(that I can think of now)! Bleh this one is kind of hard, but so good. As we live we begin to hold on to more and more junk, weighing down our hearts and hurting the people around us. Much of this junk comes from being hurt ourselves and just turns into a cycle. I personally have been letting junk build up in me to where I am mistrusting people. I’ve been really defensive :p Gross right? It is. But I’m going to start trying to let go of all this. Be patient with me though cause I definitely can’t do it all at once. But day after day, I’m going to begin to rid myself of this heaviness. “Let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” Hebrews 12:1
The air was fresh and pure as she traversed over each crevice. She was astounded by all of its intricate unique parts. The valleys and high plateaus varying in altitude and beauty. The Great One who had created these mountains and lowlands had created the very heart beating wildly within her. As she stumbled along the high crags she would lift her song to the Most High. “I lift my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made the heaven and earth. He will not let [my] foot be moved.” (Psalm 121:1-3) I love you Lord! You are holy and gracious! High and lifted up! Blessed be thy sweet name that is beyond comparison! Kings and kingdoms will all pass away but your name will stand. I am loved by you my Beloved and what sweet news this is to me. Your passion ebbs and flows through the crevices of my heart and bursts forth liken to a ray of golden pure sunlight when the shutters of an enclosed, abandoned room are abruptly opened. The ray illuminates the dusty and disheveled room but it also reveals a way to find healing. Suddenly doors and windows are made clear. Now, the room can be cleared out by opening it up to the Source of fresh air. It doesn’t need to be adorned though. That’s the job of the Sun to dance beautifully upon the plain walls. All its beauty comes from the one who revealed its imperfections and weaknesses.
Today was the last day of school and I had no idea it could be so depressing. I did not anticipate crying as much as I did and I already miss my babies! I know this is what I’m meant to do, but teaching can be pretty heart breaking. The best moment of the day was when Kaden (one of my students) saw me tearing up and gave me a big hug and kiss on the cheek. This will most likely be my last Happiness of a Teacher’s Assistant post because I will be doing school full time and will not be here anymore, but I hope to start posting my experiences of getting my bachelors in elementary education. Eventually, I’ll be able to begin blogging about the Happiness of a Teacher 🙂
Here’s a peek at my week at school (actually last week).
The picture in the top left hand corner is of the amazing food we had for living museum day. Most of the food here was for Ancient Egypt. The Vans picture is of one of my students awesome style. I envy his Vans! The last picture (on the right) is of a mustache left in the school parking lot. I figured it was pretty picture worthy. Hope your week was great!